Male red bellied woodpecker |
I love his feathers |
A visit from Mr. Rose Breasted grosbeak. Haven't seen him in a year. His ugly mate hasn't been seen yet |
Among the service berry blossoms |
Later I bought this lamp and two tables |
In September 2008, I was diagnosed with triple negative breast cancer, a huge shock to me. Within you will find my journey into the scary world of cancer and my struggles to emerge from it.
Male red bellied woodpecker |
I love his feathers |
A visit from Mr. Rose Breasted grosbeak. Haven't seen him in a year. His ugly mate hasn't been seen yet |
Among the service berry blossoms |
Later I bought this lamp and two tables |
Still a work in progress Need new couch, new rug, new side table.. |
So Steve hung my fancy monoprints up high. I thought it would be big but here it looks so tiny |
More 70s pottery These little pots are all stuck together
I had a project that needed to be done but 6 hours of labor later, all done. Take that inter-nag.. Not that outside was all that inviting: a cold rain most of the day. And I will be busy with friends for the next 3 days especially Sunday when the Moms all come over. What to make.....
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My luxury item for the living room by Kathryn Henneman. Steve is not impressed as it is mostly empty space. If these monoprints are original, I got a good deal (they look real). If they are reproductions, not so much |
Maya looks so somber here |
she likes the clown that I have as a decoration in the room she sleeps in |
cheapie but I like it.
To give Naomi a break, I've been picking Maya up at soccer practice and bringing her to our home. She did participate in the practice instead of shutting down as she did in the game. Naomi is coming over to practice with her. You could fit several soccer fields on our property.
Earlier in the day, Tessa was with us. It was too cold for her to go outside.
Last week I was good and only bought a picture stand (never pass those up) but today I went sort of wild. The series of monoprints was the most expensive thing I ever bought in a resale shop. After researching it, I went back to get it though I still think it is overpriced.
I waited until the afternoon for my long ride as it was so cold this morning. Unfortunately, the wind picked up but it felt good to be moving.
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This is the church's message board I go by often. What I fail to see are worshippers |
Other inanities: Christmas without Christ is plagiarism and Thank God we put a man on the moon |
I do like this mailbox |
Everyone needs a solar chicken, a gift from a dear friend |
I took down the Easter eggs and redecorated the wreath with cardinals I also took off the eggs from my tree. Extra bonus: we took down our snowflake lights replacing them with chains I can hang flower pots and bird feeders. The rodents will have to walk upside down on the porch ceiling to access them Good luck with that.
I biked more than 25 miles yesterday so I am getting stronger. Very pretty though as I had to delay my ride, traffic was heavier than I would have liked. Today I just went for a short ride tucking my head down as I was going into the wind. At the last second, I looked up to see a tractor hauling a spreader just a few feet from me spewing out a cloud of toxic herbicides. I tried to hold my breath. It was such a foul, choking gas cloud. If I had been looking up I could have at least gone to the other side of the road.
A good day. It never became too hot so I was able to get some yard work done. I had a nice, long phone conversation with an old friend who I hadn't spoken to for a while. Bonus, we may be travelling together soon. Note very small may. Don't want to get my hopes too high.
My swallows came back yesterday, 2-3 weeks later than last year. They swooped around me as I was on the porch. May 3 is when I saw my first hummingbird. I should get stuff out for them.
Then a friend came over. We sat on the porch as the sun went down yakking it up, drinking wine.
Off to have lunch with the hubby.
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Finally, finally got an indigo bunting to visit the feeders |
isn't he pretty? |
Daniel and his sister were our guests Friday morning. He isn't feeling well |
Last year I took a similar photo to several nurseries to ID it. No luck but someone in my class knew it was a Pasque flower, named as it blooms around Easter. Well it's about a month late this year but it is blooming. |
Birthday dinner last night with Josh's family in Brighton, which has a nice playground right on the water downtown. A nice night. Had a Moscow Mule, the latest trendy drink, one of Josh's favorites. He didn't think ours was gingery enough |
Birthday flowers. An Applewatch will be coming once the new model is out and the current one is cheaper. |
Naomi playing with Instagram filters again
I received two singing messages yesterday morning. One from Ms. Maya who has trouble with 'th's and one from my friend battling host versus graft disease. On FB, Rastaman, my sometimes bicycle companion (he wears fleece dreadlocks over his helmet) was first of 30 something to wish me Happy Birthday on FB. Some texts. A card in the mail.Some phone calls. Was Josh's prompted? He wouldn't tell. He is terrible with dates. Best: a lunch date with my oldest child though it was cut short by a call from the school Please pick up your child ASAP. Later, dinner with Steve at a new place of my choosing. I chose badly as it turned out at a place with unbelievably bad service. And we battled snarled Ann Arbor traffic to get there. In 2 weeks, the students leave so maybe the town will be more accessible. There were a few that I didn't hear from so my inner child is pouting as my adult self is saying Stop your whining; count your blessings!.
In Cancerland, each new year should be viewed as a victory. Ha I survived despite you. The pessimist sees one step closer to death. How wrinkly I am? How slow I've become? But the truth is I don't believe the calendar. I feel younger. I have to prove my 'seniorhood' constantly as my hair throws those who don't look too carefully, off. I am fairly healthy (current battle is the aftermath of taking Clindamycin 2 months ago). I can still run ever so slowly and bicycle for hours.
My baby girl will turn 37 this year. A son -in-law is in his 40s. Even Naomi, who I had as an 'elderly' mother, is 25. I must be old.
As usual, it rained on my birthday though it at least stopped while we were taking the long walk from our remote parking spot to the restaurant and back. I did find a time in the morning when it was only drizzling to run protected from the wet with my oldest article of clothing, my arctic wool hat. I did weed as the ground is now soft. Shall I plant stuff today? As we were late in contacting the guy in charge of dewinterizing our pipes (we are too stupid to do this ourselves), I am glad for rain until he comes in 3!!!!weeks. Note to self: must start nagging earlier.
I've been battling grackles. They arrive in large flocks of all males picking the feeders clean in minutes making their rusty hinge noises. Hate them. They are worse than squirrels. They do leave the finch feeder alone and the feeders in front as they haven't discovered them.
Every time I look on Zillow, the value of our house jumps another thousand. If only we were earning a thousand a day! So now it is more than a $100K over; even over what those greedy grackle band of assessors pegged it at (they backed off on half of their outrageous value but we still need to take our case to the state by the end of May).
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Naomi was requested to retrieve her daughter as she hit her head hard on the monkey bars at recess. She is to be kept awake for the next few hours to make sure she does not have a concussion |
She was fine this morning at our house |
What to do with all that hair |
new solar light |
so some tulips did survive the rabbits by hiding amongst the not so tasty daffodils
So it spring. The smells-like-sex pear trees in our neighborhood are all in bloom. We are the only ones without at least one as a windstorm uprooted the existing one two years ago. Lawn mowers are going full speed. Even Steve was out cutting the yard, which went faster with the newly sharpened blades.
I retrieved Maya from school yesterday and took her to soccer. She has such a hard time focusing on the task at hand. Even her mother could focus on sports. I watched from the sidelines with the soccer moms, most younger than Shanna. She was very excited to stay with us planning all what she was going to eat in advance. It is amazing what that skinny little body can consume though as she is in constant motion, even while asleep, it is no surprise.She was disappointed to see that Steve's siblings had left. We are working on manners, enunciating more clearly, and increasing her vocabulary.
It was warm enough to have my pre-birthday lunch outside with my birthday buddy from work. A nice afternoon. Two trains came by close to where we were sitting. Bonus, they still have the blood orange honey ale I like. And with my new chompers, I can eat crispy things now.
As almost always, it will rain on my birthday. The one exception was the only time my birthday fell on Easter when I was 4. My mom baked me a lamb cake covered in coconut fur. Meanwhile, in Naomi's short life, she has had 3 Easter birthdays including the day she was born. Labor pain is considered a forgettable pain. I can't recall exactly how it felt but I remember feeling jealous of those off to their Easter brunches while it felt like my insides were tearing apart.
The ground now is too hard to weed. That is my excuse and I am sticking with it.
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I have daffodils of various colors all over the place Blooms won't last long in this heat. Yep it is 81 degrees. Just last week, there was snow. |
Maya and the girl she lives with on the weekend. They are on the same soccer team |
Josh's family. Didn't get to see him this weekend |
Art next to the front door |
New print in hallway with reflections from the nearby room
I should be out weeding right now but lazy, lazy lazy. I've only done a bit of today's to-do list. Before the heat hit, out for a long run and a short bike. Windless, cloudless. Some of last week's turmoil seems to be subsiding so maybe I can sleep better now.
The hawk was sitting on the nest as I ran by. I did not see its partner. What are hackles as in 'it raised my hackles'? According to one bird book, the difference between the sharp-shinned hawk and the Cooper's hawk is that the latter has 'hackles' whereas the former has a milder mien. Mean looking eyebrows?
Turkeys ran in front of my bike yesterday. I hadn't seen them since the fall though they don't migrate. I don't see turkeys along my usual running route (lots of deer though) but I can cover more territory on a bike.
Last night I went to a memorial for a friend's father. The prayers were in Hebrew but a translation was provided. I was struck with the difference between them and those said at a Christian ceremony. In the latter, you are to be comforted by the idea hat your love one is now with their savior. None of that in the Kaddish. Instead more reminders of who provides the rains for your crops. Cross Him, and the rains will cease.
Interesting.
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This is the tail end of a hairy woodpecker. They look like large versions of the downies that frequent my feeders. If it were a downie, it would have white bars on the black tail feathers |
So I finally got a photo of the red bellied woodpecker. I believe it is a male but not absolutely sure |
Close-up of Mrs. Cooper's hawk |
This nest is very close to the road I run on |
As the one on the tree appears larger than the one on the nest, I assume the smaller male is warming the eggs |
When the setting sun hits part of my glass collection, it looks pretty |
new glass pumpkin glowing |
cool Mexican plate
Back in the Land of Cancer seven years or so ago, one would find me up at night obsessing over my possible death. Yeah the odds were in my favor but the 30 % chance of an early, painful death kept me up. In the support group, the moderator asked if I found losing my hair the most devastating aspect of cancer. Nope...that was just the cherry on top of a sh*t sundae.
If only I didn't have this, I would be so happy kept cycling through my brain. At some point the fear of distal mets, which come sooner than later in TNBC, was replaced with non-Cancerland worries like how to deal with a teenage pregnancy of an especially immature potential mother. Back to the if only late night show.
A bit of progress has been made on that front though the greatest issues have yet to be addressed. Some problems seem unfixable.This is all I will say about it.
As for a minor if only in the general scheme of things such as the face plant I made in the middle of the PCH early February, I got the last bit of work done yesterday as my flimsy, composite fake teeth were replaced by porcelain fake teeth. The dentist's advice, next time I fall, protect the face. If only I was aware I was falling. The teeth are better than what they replaced as one of the teeth had been chipped in a previous fall. Still my lip is somewhat swollen and numb though the area seems to get smaller. And I am not sure the scars will fade to nothing. And the bills keep coming If only I had decided to see the elephant seals at Ano Nuevo that day....
Spring is here for at least a week and then some. I still needed to wear the ecologically unsound furry pants to run as the sun rose as there was frost all around but in the afternoon after a very long dental appointment, it was warm enough for bicycling shorts so off I went. Physical exercise is such a balm for me. I will do that 6 day ride with a friend in 3 month though in a less hilly section of the state than the past 4 years. Having winter in April had really messed up my training schedule but now it looks like the snows have stopped.
There was a painting I really wanted at the resale shop but a week later, it was gone. Snooze you lose. I did buy a few things but I am really cutting back, really. Soon it will be planting season to distract me. Some varmint is eating my tulips. Rabbits? Deer?
Oliver got in to the gifted and talented program in his district. They only admit the top 5%. He is so easily bored but perhaps now he will be challenged. Downside: her kids will be in 3 different schools next year.
Maya's first soccer game will be tomorrow on the other side of Ann Arbor. She is a very coordinated kid but does not follow instructions very well. On the weekends, she lives with 3 kids, one of whom is her age. This little girl is considerably more focused and also on the team. Hopefully it will rub off on Maya. I've had the two girls run around my yard. They both can run like the wind
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